Battynora

I came back to DW recently and posted here but I felt it was too soon in a way since I just created an account and was still getting adjusted to using the site and controls. I feel more comfortable now and at ease. I thought I would try to use the template this time and I deleted my previous post here.

Name:

I'm a very private person so don't think I will post my real name. All the good names were taken when I came here so I came up with something a bit too quickly. I love cherries and remember my childhood love of cherry sundaes. I ended up spelling sundae wrong for my user name but its fine.

Age:

I am in my late 50s. I am male but lack many male traits I think. I have always felt more female my whole life. My friends have mostly been women all my life. I don't usually get along with men too well but this is hard to explain. It all depends on their views and being open to how I am.

I mostly post about:

I've been using online journal sites since 2000. Before that I kept journals on paper and diaries since around grade 2 of school. I still treat a online journal like my paper journal but this can be difficult. I might post more often than most people. A journal to me is my life support in a way. My trusted place to get thoughts out and feel safe. I'm sorry if I post often but I really need to post when I have thoughts on my mind. What I write about is my life and things I have experienced.

My hobbies are:

Hobbies have come and gone for me by now. Photography was my passion much of my life. I don't feel a connection to it anymore sadly. Reading books was also a large passion. Something is preventing me from reading more lately. I think it has to do with some issues with vertigo I have. I still love books and everything to do with books. I just wish I could read more. Journaling is my other hobby I guess but more of a passion. Writing and journaling to me is similar to breathing for me. If I stopped writing I don't think I would be living any longer.

My fandoms are:

I don't have any fandoms. Sorry I don't even understand what fandoms are that well.

I'm looking to meet people who:

I'm looking to meet people who feel similar to me that have a need or desire to write. Possibly people who feel similar about writing their thoughts out. I know people use DW for many different reasons. For me it really is a digital version of my years writing on paper. If someone else can relate to this reason for posting here I would be grateful to welcome them to my journal.

My posting schedule tends to be: daily/weekly/monthly/sporadic/etc

I am sorry that I might post a bit too often for some people. I don't mean to overwhelm anyone. I can't help the need to write since I am dealing with some health challenges at the moment. I'm trying to work them out. I tend to post photos often because I am more of a visual person. I posted on LJ for years also since 2000 and this was often the difference from writing on paper for me. I was able to share images more on LJ and on DW, and view images people I follow would share. I would prefer if I could find others who are also quite active on DW. Since I do like to take part in reading what people I follow post, and commenting back and forth.

When I add people, my dealbreakers are:

I think I might be a bit fussy about who I add and I apologize for this. I'm a very quiet person even though I post often. I don't like too much noise and noise to me has to do with things like talk about sports or politics. I don't know how to describe the other thing but I feel passionate about LGBTQ+ and in general loving all and equality. I also prefer to add someone who does post often. I try not to watch any news online or in my life as well. I find it really brings me down so I try to avoid news of things happening in the world.

Before adding me, you should know:

I'm not sure what you should know before adding me other than how I may post quite often. Maybe a few times a day at times. This might balance out over time as I feel I am going through a difficult time right now. I also talk very openly about my thoughts on here. I don't hold much back but I try not to offend anyone. That is what my paper journal always was for me. My safe space to write. I think of DW as a similar sort of space for me. My posts always will be locked or I think on here it is called Access List or something. I can never post publicly since that would make me feel so uncomfortable and self-conscious.

I did have an experience a year ago where I came close to dying. I was on a ventilator. This has shaken up my life quite a lot and I may post about it often and the aftermath of things still going on. I struggle a bit to remember things and even spell words. I may ask people to explain in greater detail at times due to these mental challenges I have been experiencing since going through that struggle a year ago. I am sorry but I just need a bit more time sometimes to understand things.

Overall I love being here. I love reading posts from others who trust to add me to their journal. I also love commenting and being able to talk back and forth about things people share. I'm not a fan of any other social media. Either on LJ or DW, this was the only place online I felt safe. LJ is long dead to me though and I will never go back there. I am grateful DW is still here and very thankful to everyone at DW for keeping this place alive.